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More models and their stories can be found here: http://projectreveal.org/2016-embrace-your-body-photos/
Photographer: Jenna Citrus
Model: Charlotte N. Olson
I am a dancer; I’ve been dancing my whole life. I love the way that the art of dance makes me feel. I love who I am when I am lost in choreography and telling a story. For me dance is just that, my story. I have not always been great expressing myself through words, it is definitely something I am working on, but dance has always been a way for me to say what I’m truly feeling. In high school, I developed an eating disorder. I felt the pressure to be thin. I wouldn’t eat; I would work out excessively, and constantly food would be on my brain. Luckily, I had many friends and family stick by me through this journey. My grandfather became the shining light that officially helped me make the decision to seek out recovery.
Thanks to him and many others I am now a survivor and choosing to go into mental health to help others. I love the way I feel right now. I love feeling strong. I love feeling beautiful. I love sharing my story to hopefully help the lives of others.
Photographer: Jenna Citrus
Model: Faith Georges
I’d been on a business trip, working 60 hour weeks and came home and slept for two months. I couldn’t get up. It’s like my body was just waiting and it finally imploded on me. My chronic fatigue syndrome got so bad I had to go to the cancer center for infusions. I have so many prescriptions. I can’t hold my bladder. My arthritis, my hips, my back – it is all so bad. It got to the point where I couldn’t sit up for longer than a few hours a day. I spend my whole life in bed, me and my dog Abbey. I’m cut off from everything. And the biggest thing is the expense of being sick. People take for granted always being able to go to work and support themselves. I was very successful and had worked from the ground up to make a good living. But I almost lost my house. I will probably have to sell my dream house. I want women to know how important it is to save – married or single – so you have something to fall back on in case something happens. It gives you the power to walk away if you need to, get help if you need to, get health care. I’m buried under medical and other bills. It’s just destroyed me.
Photographer: Jenna Citrus
Models: Rachel Stratman & Jessica S. Martin
I was blessed with my best friend from the start of life, and she happens to also look just like me. We are best friends and twin sisters. And even though we look much alike, we are so very different in many other ways. I’m comfortable in my skin. Your body is yours…and beautifully yours. And even though I have someone running through life with me who looks very much like me, we are so very different. And beautifully different, inside and out! — Rachel
I’ve always been self-conscious of my body. I’ve always worried about whether my arms jiggle, my legs/thighs look too big, if I have too many freckles, if my scar on my stomach is too noticeable or if the circles under my eyes are too dark. People compare Rachel and I all the time, which can be good and bad. We have been through a lot together always very supportive and encouraging to each other, which has not changed as we’ve gotten older. I’ve also found that motherhood has allowed me to embrace myself even more. My children have made me realize that unconditional love allows you to be blind to flaws. Your body definitely changes after carrying babies, but it really makes you appreciate and respect what a woman’s body is capable of doing. I grew babies, an incredible miracle! If my body can do that, then I need to embrace and love all of my flaws. I see many features that are not perfect but tell lots of stories — freckles all over my face from the many days playing in the sun, circles under my eyes from the sleepless nights from studying and taking care of my babies, wrinkles on my forehead and cheeks from happy and sad times. — Jessica
Photographer: Jenna Citrus
Model: Stephanie West
I was sexually abused starting at the age of nine. That terrible experience has always influenced the way I see myself and the perception I have of my body. However, I’m trying to change that. My self-image may come from a place of shame, but therapy has helped me understand my trauma and the emotions I have because of it. Slowly but surely, I’m moving away from the shame toward a place of acceptance and love for myself and my body. My photo reflects the idea of my self-image coming from that darker place but ultimately I’m accepting my body and learning to love and appreciate it. Currently, I don’t love my body. I think that will always be something I struggle with. But I can hold on to the hope of one day feeling at home in my body and seeing it as it really is, rather than through a lens warped by trauma. I hope my photo will also convey a sense of peace. There may be darkness, but there is also light and life and hope.
Against the Grain
Photographer: Jenna Citrus
Model: Chloe Snead
MUA: Lily Pease
I am a woman born in a male’s body. For most of my life I have felt cursed. In this society there is a stark contrast between how men and women are treated and what is expected of them. I have only recently started living as my true self — a woman. And although my physical representation doesn’t change the fact I am a woman, I still want to undergo changes and hormone replacement therapy to feel more comfortable in my skin. I have to go against the grain to be true to myself. And it’s worth it. There is much I want to change. I am standing up and being ME despite my body. I used to carry so much shame and disgust of my body, beating myself up convinced I couldn’t wear the clothes I wanted and that I would never have the body I wanted.
Then I realized no one in this whole wide universe can stop me from being true to myself. When I look in the mirror most of the time I see a man reflected, which hurts a lot. I avoid my reflection. But with make-up and a good outfit, I can sometimes get a glimpse of my true form. I fully expect that over time and with HRT my body will start to reflect who I am internally. And that is something that gives me the power to press forward.
A Pursuit of Summits written by Johnnie R. Williams
Book design and layout by Jenna Citrus
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From my show Immerse at the Koch Immersive Theater, to the many art shows, 2016 has been a fun and exciting year for Jenna Citrus art. But this year is not over yet!
On December 7th my solo exhibition, Process, will be opening at the McCutchan Art Center and Pace Galleries on the campus of the University of Southern Indiana. It is the culmination of my year as the Efroymson Bridge Year Fellow. The opening reception will take place on Wednesday, December 7th from 7 to 9 p.m., and the exhibit will be on continuous display until January 16th. Please make plans to attend. I am so excited to share with you all of the new art that has been created specifically for this show. https://www.facebook.com/events/1641871999456147/?ti=icl
Prior to my solo show, I will be having my last sale of the year at the Holiday Mart, which is held at the Evansville Museum of Arts, History & Science. It will take place on December 3rd from 11am to 5pm, and on December 4th from 12pm to 5pm. https://www.facebook.com/events/986455371473546/?ti=icl
I would also like to share a special coupon for online sales on November 26th in concurrence with Small Business Saturday, any online purchases made from my Etsy store from now until 11/27/16 will receive 20% off of their purchase. Happy shopping! https://www.etsy.com/shop/TheSunDances
I look forward to seeing you again this year.
Have a Happy Holiday season.
Dates to remember:
December 7 – Process: A Solo Exhibition
December 3-4 – Holiday Mart at the museum
Process: A Solo Exhibition: https://www.facebook.com/events/1641871999456147/?ti=icl
Holiday Mart at the museum: https://www.facebook.com/events/986455371473546/?ti=icl
Press release: for immediate release
PROCESS: Jenna (Citrus) Rueger, The 2016 Efroymson Bridge Year Fellowship Exhibit
December 7, 2016 – January 16, 2017
Kenneth P. McCutchan Art Center/ Palmina F. and Stephen S. Pace Galleries
University of Southern Indiana
PROCESS: Jenna (Citrus) Rueger, The 2016 Efroymson Bridge Year Fellowship Exhibit will be on display at the University of Southern Indiana’s McCutchan Art Center/ Pace Galleries. It opens on Wednesday, December 7, 2016, with a reception for the artist 7 – 9 pm, and continues through January 16, 2017.*
Ms. Rueger is a December 2015 USI honors graduate in Art with an emphasis in graphic design. As the 2016 Efroymson Bridge Year Fellow she has spent the past year creating photographs, fabric designs and digital products to perfect her portfolio for graduate school application. The Efroymson Bridge Year Fellowship is a competitive funded award program that provides a highly motivated and talented recent graduate of the University of Southern Indiana’s Art and Design Department with a post-undergraduate year to significantly expand her artistic vision. The Fellow works alongside a mentor while researching graduate programs and creating artworks for Master of Fine Arts applications. Joan deJong is Ms. Rueger’s mentor. DeJong’s background is in computer arts, illustration, and fine art, and she teaches 3D printing at USI. The University of Southern Indiana and the Art and Design Department are most grateful to the Efroymson Family Fund of the Central Indiana Community Foundation for their generous sponsorship of this outstanding annual award.
In her artist statement, Ms. Rueger says, “As an artist I am driven by process and continuation of the image. With a recent series, I would begin painting, but stop to photograph my piece as the wet paint shifted into unique shapes. From the session I would emerge with a completed painting, a variety of images captured throughout the process, and a digital manipulation that could be continued as a pattern for different products. With these images I began to explore surface design and experimented with what different final images could look like. This exhibition showcases my pieces as works of art for material in the form of clothing. I’ve worked with several online companies and a fashion designer to achieve a variety of looks. With the continuation of my education in a master’s program I intend to utilize multiple types of surface design for furthering the reach of photography and not limiting myself to the edge of the canvas.”
Please note that the McCutchan Art Center will be closed December 19, 2016 – January 4, 2017 for winter break.
Please contact for more details: Jenna (Citrus) Rueger, firstname.lastname@example.org, www.jennacitrus.com
Things I didn’t think I could do but did:
Ran 6.2 miles
Ran 9.3 miles
Ran 13.1 miles
I never thought I could run a half marathon. I nearly start crying when I think about it…because I did…cry, a lot. The last two miles and half hour after were tears. The last four miles were in socks carrying my shoes that were too new. My old shoes had hurt in the races leading up to it but these were killing me. I kept trying to run. I tried adding more magic no blister powder but nothing was helping…except not wearing the shoes. So I carried them. My training was the 10 and 15k’s leading up to the half. I still don’t run more than two miles when I train. I just can’t seem to wrap my head around running for that long. But when I’m with a crowd of people who for some reason think they can run more than 3 miles, I too can run forever…or at least that’s what I said at the 10 and 15k’s. After the half, I said, probably never again. I haven’t run since, not even a mile. But it is beyond wild to me that I could just up and decide, hey I’m going to run this far and did it.
When you come to a “I can’t go on.” Go on.